did not blog yesterday as i wanna watch lord of the rings :x &&i came back quite late. butbut, i still blogged now righttttt!

my mood yesterday is constantly changing. &im sorry peeps if i really attituded you all yeah?

its from hyper > normal > irritated > saddened > normal again.

firstly, im hyper cause its my dardar's birthday& i planned a surprise for her! my plan was to act quarrell with her then i actually go buy birthday cake for her then suddenly POP OUT to surprise her& to sing her a birthday song. butbut, things was not quite right larh. cause i think i screwed it all up? but then im still hyper de kays. then we sang birthday song for her& we ate the fruit cakeeeeeeeee :D damn niceeeee one norh. but i only ate one, using tissue paper. while the guys ate using fork& paper plates cause we bought it for them -.-

it became normal when sonia quarelled with nigel& things became not right. somemore we have to buy paper plates for them cannnnnn. although our mission that day is to celebrate manping's birthday& make her damn freaking happy. butbut, i guess things became the opposite? we're like walking different ways, chatting different topics. even on the MRT they chat themselves& isolated us. by then im still normal de can!

i became irritated by them when they really isolated themselves can. they walk their own ways& they went to eat without telling us. perhaps they did? fine, if thats the case we're at fault. but if they really did cannot be not even one of us heard it right? yes, you told weikeat& esmond. but then you should have make an effort to tell the birthday girl right? didnt you know that she's so anxious to find you all until my brain cannot even function well. perhaps it didnt since im on the stupid isolated MRT.

it became saddened when we found them. i wished i've never found them man. maybe we gave you all attitude or issit vice-versa? i know we cannot decide on a place to settle in cause all of our brains aren't functioning aint it? if you all are hungry we all not issit? cant you all make an effort just to ask us not even nicely just ask us whether we wanna eat anot or are we hungry. the least ask the birthday girl you all dont even need to give a damn about us. when we found you all, you all said we all gave you all attitude. you all will never understand the freaking anxiety you all gave us. when i said byebye to you all you all said i said with sacarcism and gave me one freaking middle finger. perhaps thats when my brain completly cannot function and at the mental state of breaking down already. please larh, who will say byebye to you when i really want to be sacarstic. for your information, i will say "BYES FUCKERS" if i really wanna be sacarstic okays. i've been holding back it until i went back to them to confront them again. i cant take it anymore. fine, i broke down. you all did nothing but just looking at me. &my two sons just walked away. thats when i really feel like shouting fuck you to the whole shopping mall. im not the only one who wanna smack you all left right front back can. rina, manping, sonia wishes to do that too. why? cause you all disappointed us. is that the effing way to treat a girl when its her birthday? its not even right the treat a girl like that on normal days. you all will never know how much tears manping dropped for you all. &i think she dont even wished to have came out if she had know that this would have happened.

i tried to be hyper after that &bring back the whole atmosphere to be happy or normal again kays. its not that im cold-blooded. i think i should not waste my tears on them. &i want my precious dardar to be happy on her birthday again. for your information again, manping cancelled her dinner with her family for us, FOR US. &you all did this to her. you think its fair for her? obviously not. or maybe, its a fact that we cant clique.

butbut it became normal when me, manping,sonia, tengkiat& my two sons went to eat dinner. i think thats the funnest moment of all already can? we joked we laughed. we went to arcade to play :D &i think i would never get my driving license on my whole entire life man. aww, thats so sad can. &&we went home :D